{Side note: I've been sick for just over a week now, and I just want to say how grateful I am for how gentle and kind Eric has been. It's just a bad cough and so there isn't much that can be done, but he has been very good to me lately. Yesterday he even went out, in the first day of rain we've seen in a month, to get me a drink that would help me to feel a ton better.}
Yesterday was a bit of a quiet morning between Eric and I. We both took our mornings to, in our own ways, deal with our separate thoughts and feelings. Early afternoon we went to the gym together and that was a huge help. We worked out, and Eric pushed me, and it made us feel better. Then we spent a relaxed and rainy evening at home in the pool for a few minutes, and then playing some games together.
{Side note #2: Have you ever played Pocket Frogs for the iPhone. Eric has been playing for a week or two maybe and I bugged him and bugged him, and just didn't get it. Until Monday. I finally gave in and got it, and we've been feeding off each other's addictions to it ever since. So we played some cards and some pocket frogs}
So, Eric has decided to stop working the job he's at now. It hasn't been as successful as we thought/hoped/assumed it would be, and so he finished up this week with a call back sale on Monday morning. Yesterday was his first day of vacation time before we head home to Calgary to start working again. We are going home to Calgary!
The
thing that's been the hardest for us to accept (I think it's been a
mutual feeling, and I know I've felt it strongly) in this whole thing is
that we felt that Eric was not blessed as much as we maybe wanted him
to be, or even thought he deserved to be at work. He did work hard, and
he mostly did all he could, and I hope he still knows how much I
appreciate him for all he's done for us. I've told him in a joking way
sometimes, "You're so brave" before he goes to work. And I mean it. I
hope he knows how much I admire his strength and his desire to just do
what needs to be done to provide for me, and to fulfill what he feels
are his duties and responsibilities.
But in the past couple of days we've really come to understand and appreciate what success means
in our situation right now. It's not all about the financial aspect or opportunities that were here, but about the experience and the personal opportunities as well. We'll still have what we need to get by,
and we know that we have support from all corners. We will never go
without, as long as there's something that can be done, by us or those
who love us, to prevent it. We have also so much enjoyed our time here
in Nova Scotia. We came here this summer to be close to my family. To
get close to them, and enjoy with them some key events and exciting
things this summer. We've done that. It's nice that we really just feel
so good about the time we've been here, and I'm actually excited to get
home. Halifax has just done all it can do for us for right now, and there are some great things waiting for us in Calgary.
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The other exciting thing that happened this week: I decided what to do for school. I got a letter in the mail, after I've applied to open studies to start back at Mount Royal and finish my degree. It told me that they were happy to get my application...blah, blah, blah...I am number 920 on the wait list, and will be offered a spot as soon as one opens. So basically, I moved on to plan B, which quickly became plan A the more I thought about it and got excited about it and remembered how much I've wanted to do it since like high school. I am going to take photography courses in the fall. I'm going to get myself a camera, take some classes and I am going to be a photographer! I've also always wanted to be a graphic designer. That's what my dad took in school. I've always assumed that my creative energy and brainpower comes from my mom, but I'm just realizing that some must be from him too because he's a good artist and photographer (although he doesn't use it much), and I want to do what he did first. I'm pretty excited about it actually. I hope to eventually take pictures and design invitations and announcements and stationary of all kinds. That's the plan. I got such a burst of creative waves this week that I actually decided on a name and started designing a blog/website. I want this to happen now, so I'm doing all I can now to get closer to when it can.
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So the next couple of weeks are full of plans for happy things, and fun things, and last things and just good things! We'll (maybe just I'll) actually make it to two extra things on our Halifax list, that I thought we would miss.
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