33 Weeks

Last week I had another centering group meeting and it was completely the opposite from how I felt last week. It was fantastic. This one was lead by the other two of my four midwives, and it was just a really different atmosphere. I am kind of hoping and praying that one or two of these ladies happen to be on call when I deliver. I don't know if that's bad to say or hope for, but I don't think so. I just connected better with them and work better with them. I'm really grateful for how I came out of this one feeling. It completely turned things around for me, and started to get me really excited about what is to come.
We talked this time about breastfeeding mostly, and about parenting and post natal things. I am still a bit weirded out by breast feeding, I'm not going to lie. I'm going to do it, and I know it's what's best for my child, but I sill think it's the physical change my body will do that will creep me out the most. When that milk starts coming in...weird. I don't even know. They didn't speak much of the technicals or anything like that, they just gave us tips for supplements and homeopathics and things to consider when breastfeeding, and in post natal recovery.
An exciting thing happened at this appointment though: my baby turned. I assumed it would eventually, but it was nice that it's happened now and that I don't really have to worry anymore about having a breach baby. I was a bit concerned after the last one. But the coolest part was that I knew it had turned. At the last visit she felt around for it, and asked me where I was feeling the most movement, and from there she concluded that it was still bum and feet down. In the last two weeks, and especially the couple of days right before my appointment this week I started to feel a lot more of the movement at the top of my belly, and things just felt a tiny bit different. I knew going in that that's what it was, so that made me feel pretty good. It's still really strange to me though that an approximately 16-18" baby had room to completely rotate in there, but I guess it knows what it's doing. It seems to know more about what's going on than I do, so it's a good thing I'm not doing this on my own.
With the movement at the top now I am getting a bit more uncomfortable. Luckily I haven't been too soar yet - just my rib muscles ache a little, as well as a soar tail bone - but I have felt squished. It's hard to sit for too long these days because I can always feel a little part of him/her up under my ribs. I have to get up and stretch every once in a while, and give it a little space as well. If I feel cramped, I can only imagine what it feels like to be in there. But I am still doing well I think, and especially in comparison to some stories I've heard from other ladies lately.
I've said it before, and I'll say it again: I am so lucky and very grateful for the pregnancy I've had (since the second trimester).