Grandma and Grandpa went home to Halifax last night

It was really hard for mommy to watch them go. I thought back on their visit here and really hoped they got what they came for and were leaving satisfied.

I fell asleep for the last couple hours we were at the house. I was woken up and then it was time to go to the airport. Tears filled my eyes as we walked out the door and they stayed there all the way to the airport. Your dad was a great support and just held my hand tight - he knew how hard it would be for me. 

At the airport we got out of the car and said our goodbyes. My tears turned to sobs and other tears were shed as well. I know your grandparents wish they could be closer to you. I am so grateful they were able to share your first couple of weeks with us and I know they are too. They love you so much Cecelia and they are never farther than a phone call away - maybe it's actually me who needs to remember that. 

Back in the car I noticed that your dad had a few tears too. I didn't mention it to him and I don't really know what he was feeling. Maybe he will miss your grandparents as much as I will, maybe he will miss them for you. Maybe he was just grateful they came, or maybe he was sad to see them go and scared to do this all on our own. I was feeling all of those things. Maybe he was using his tears to support me since I'd cried so many of my own I had nothing left. Whatever it was that he was actually feeling it helped me to have him with me in that moment. 

On the way home we played that piano CD that we've been playing in the car since you came along. One song on it called Kiss the Rain by Yiruma always brings a very specific picture to my mind. I'm in my first semester away from home sitting in the computer lab at the university waiting for your dad to come find me for lunch and realizing that I am falling in love with him. In that moment I got the image in my mind of our future together and now here you are. We have been through so much together since that time over 4 years ago and now we have you. You are the future I imagined with him. I shared this with him for the first time tonight. He told me that this music reminds him of the time we spent together in Europe. 

Your dad and I have had some hard times together and have always pulled through. We love each other more than anything and that love has gotten us through. Now that we have you that love is more precious and that bond is stronger. It suddenly felt like everything was going to be just fine. We can do it, just the three of us. We can be a family and everything that it includes, and while it's always going to be nice to feel the support of those around us, we are a unit on our own and we can make it together.