Cecelia really started outgrowing our room a month or so ago when she started to go to bed a little earlier. She used to go to bed at the same time as us, and she used to sleep through the night. We'd hardly even notice she was there. She started to wake up a couple times a night, and now she goes to bed between 7:30 and 8pm. That's when we started to clear out her room and get it ready. We were in the stage of putting her to bed, doing whatever we wanted to do until about 10:30 or 11 and then having to get everything in order, all the lights out and say our prayers in the hall - then sneak as quietly as we could in to bed. Sometimes she'd wake up, sometimes she's stay asleep. So we started to clear out her room and tried to make it a real bedroom, but it was hard with Eric gone so much to really make a good dent in it. Then inevitably everything we'd take out would somehow find it's way back in before we got the whole thing done.
Thursday night Eric and came home and he said, "Cecelia's sleeping in here tonight." I said "What? Tonight?". Why not - we've been talking about it for months. Why not now? I suddenly realised that this was real, and that we weren't going to avoid it for much longer. Then the tears came - the kind that are really hard to stop. I cannot believe how fast Cecelia is growing up. I can't believe how cliche that sentence is, and yet how much it surprises me every single day, which each passing milestone. It is unbelievable. I was really sad that she wouldn't be right there at the end of our bed, right there in the room with us. On top of all that her room wasn't really ready - it still had some random messy spots and boxes in it. I told him I really wanted her room to be her's when she moved in, and for it to be ready and settled for her. I begged him to give me til the weekend, and he agreed.
Yesterday morning we got the crib scrubbed and set up. We got the sheets and bedding on and we got the shelf and boxes moved over from our room to hers. We got it looking like a real bedroom, and ready for the little girl who will sleep there. So last night was her night to take the leap and be on her own. The leap was more of a tiny step for her, and colossal jump for me. I missed her just a little bit, but she did so well. She went down just like she normally would, and woke up through the night just like she normally does, and was ready for me to come find her in the morning just like a normal day. When I went in to feed for her first nighttime feed I really missed her. I held her tight and snuggled her for just a minute before putting her back down. But then I went back to my room and snuggled my husband, and it felt really excited about this step we've taken. Cecelia is growing up, and that's a really good thing. Eric and I get to be MR and MRS again, instead of just MOM and DAD. Our bedroom, which is probably my favourite spot in the house, is finally ours again.
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